Dear Sugar Bean,

My dearest Sugar Bean,

I can't pick you up and hug you

Although I really want to

I can't feed you when you're hungry

Although I really want to

I can't offer a finger to hold onto

Although I really want to

I can't show you my matching smile dimple

Although I really want to

There are lots of things, my dear, that I may never do. But here is our first lesson, babe, of what I know to be true. I'll be damned if this disease takes what I need to do.

I can make sure they keep you safe and warm

It's what I need to do

I can take on this pain and suffering so you don't have to

It's what I need to do

I can show you what being strong looks like

It's what I need to do

I can support daddy when he worries

It's what we need to do

I can get help placing you in my soothing arms

It's what I need to do

Sugar Bean, there are many things that I still need to do. Most of all I need to tell you how much I will always love you.

Love forever,

Mommy